Fix me!

When you try your best but you don't succeed 
When you get what you want but not what you need 
When you feel so tired but you can't sleep 
Stuck in reverse 

Sarika called chirping gleefully, "Pune Pune Pune". I had prayed hard that she gets Bangalore for job location. But it was not meant to be. I started retrospecting. The time when I said bye to all of them to come to Bangalore. Then again after going to Pune, fighting hard to come back. It was all I wanted, being in Bangalore. Doing my post graduation. I never thought of what I needed then. It was when Sarika joined in Mysore I realised what I did need. Someone I loved dearly to be around. Someone to take care of . Someone who could take care of me.

When the tears come streaming down your face 
When you lose something you can't replace 
When you love someone but it goes to waste 
Could it be worse? 

As Chris Martin hummed softly in my ears, I started believing I had lost something I will never be able replace. It will never be the same going back. All I had were memories of when we were together. Ofcourse it couldn't be worse.

High up above or down below 
When you're too in love to let it go 
If you never try you'll never know 
Just what you're worth 
Tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you cannot replace
Tears come streaming down your face
And I
Tears come streaming down your face
I promise you I will learn from all my mistakes
Tears come streaming down your face
And I

I could feel my breathing loose the usual rhythm. Lungs trying to pull in two breaths at a time. Face mildly shaking in response. Eyes so full of tears that I had to spill them. I sobbed softly to myself.

Lights will guide you home 
And ignite your bones 
And I will try to fix you


I hope someone really does!


Buhbyee lil sis!!!