Why?

I have felt a lot burdened by people's views, their judgements about me , about what I do? And sometimes I just sit back and think why?

Honestly I really donot know why... But it must matter a real big deal , as I write my public personal diary. I am tired of justifying why I do something , why I think in a particular way. But when someone judges me for being me, it hurts real bad. I wear myself up my sleeve, I do not care if it sounds wrong. I put to words what I feel. Maybe thats why people find me out of sorts , too intimidating to approach. I am far from straightforward and I know that. Howeva I justify , whoeva I justify, howmucheva I justify... there will be one or the other who is not totally convinced. Its like a wedding, where there has to be someone who will complain.

It may just be better for me to stop thinking why and say why not! Why not be myself. Just stay the way I am. After all, like Scout said for Jem, " Its not like he killed the mockingbird! "